|
| I've been meaning to do this for a while so now that i have a moment i wanna see what happens. I'm running on about maybe 5 to 6 hours of sleep in the past few days so i want to see how stupid and silly a journal entry can turn out when my brain is on "E."
So shit, where do I start? So many things are cluttering my poor, tired little brain what now...and i mean its not anything of real importance i guess. Like for instance, it is hott as f**k outside right now, the weather here in Shreveport finally made up its mind and i cant tell you how happy that makes me, but nonetheless i was sweating pounds off today when i was at work and you all know me, i dont have much too spare...but i guess the one positive i can say about that is i'm getting a tan at least, a farmers one, but at least its some color...because me and Casper could be indentical twins at the moment, which probably isnt a sexy look for yours truly. What else? i'm starving, but A) too lazy to get up and go to the kitchen and B) prolly dont have any food to eat b/c i need to go to the store...this is when a friend who can cook like a champ would be nice but my buddy T-Bone is prolly the best choice and i'm sure he is asleep since he has work at 3am so i'm sure i'm outta luck on that one...
For my woman topic of the day, i'm curious why women play so much? i mean i know us guys do too, but women bitch about it more when a guy plays games than guys do when a girls plays...i mean i cant relate to this situation but one of my dude friends seems to be getting played hard by one of my lady friends...i mean we all went out a couple weeks back and she is all over him around me and the rest of my co-workers...than maybe a week ago dude takes his dinner break to go see her and he says she said "maybe" 3 words to him...now mind you he hasnt done anything to fuck anything up so the fact she went from damn near jumpin dudes bones to be stand offish is lame 4 real...its almost like she's fuckin wit dudes head, or to use a Prince song...usin that "pussy control" to have him all up on her to where she can toy with him. I just dont understand where the satisfaction of playin wit him like that comes into play? sounds like if anything that would be a waste of time, might just be me.
My next topic of choice i guess has to be i have something to look forward to soon...me and my folks are planning on goin on a cruise in May, if my work doesnt bend me over and not approve my vacation...which they should since i rarely take off work. That week is gonna be magical 4 real, the places we go could suck, weather could suck and people on the boat could suck and i already know i'm gonna have a good time b/c A) will be wit the parents, which is always nice....and B) NO WORK!!!....cant wait to have a week of nothing, will be flippin awesome.
Well i'm done rambling and bouncing from topic to topic, its nap time...i'll try to keep updating this, figure i should get back in the groove of doin it anyway! holllllllla!
C-A
| | |
| Wow...actually checked this thing and realized that i havent written in here since September, seems odd to me since i know there was a time where i would write in here a couple times a week...so i figure its time to catch up on the times ya dig.
I mean where do i start, i mean its not like a whole lot of new and exciting stuff is going on. I still in Shreveport working at KTBS Channel 3 still...its been a real good experience working there in the fact that i've learned a whole lot about the business...the good, the bad and the ugly and through all i've learned its done nothing short but solidify the fact that i want to be in the TV biz for life, i mean i was always a little scared in the back of my mind that i would finish school, get a TV job and than find out that i hated it, which would have probably devastated me b/c i've wanted to do this for so long but its been the opposite. Its also cool b/c i'm not even in the position i wanna be in when it comes to this field but i still dig it so much. Only thing that needs to happen is i either A) need to stay in the same position im in now (News Photographer) but move into a bigger TV market or B) Find a reporter job in a similar or smaller TV market. I'm still looking currently for a new job, seen some opportunities that i'm gonna try to jump on since the economy is awful and jobs are scarce i have to be pro active and get my chances while they're hot i guess...
Outside of work, life is good i would say...i know one way to describe it is very very very non-stressful...which feels so odd, b/c everyone seems to have a little stress but the only thing i stress about is my job, other than that i dont worry about shit and i totally dig that. My social life obviously isnt what i wish it was, b/c of my weekend work schedule but i enjoy the few times i get to go out wit my people and chill...I know one thing that is interesting to me right now is my relationship status, i mean yeah i'm still single and definitely still loving it, but i've been analyzing that situation a lot lately. I mean i've been on a couple dates in the past months and they went well, both ladies were very pretty, very sweet but i swear i must have become the most picky guy in the world or something b/c while i noticed the positive qualities i could pinpoint every little thing about them i didnt like which i usually never notice right away...if there are little things about a woman i dont necessarily like it usually takes a while for me to notice them, but now every girl i meet, period i can see right off the bat how i wouldnt be interested in them...In my mind, that just spells the fact that the next girl that is gonna have me is one that i'm gonna want to be around, not just once a week or so, but once every other day or so and a lady that can sustain my attention, basically this woman will be the bomb, totally explosive. All i can say is thank god i'm not searching for a woman b/c it would be a flippin' journey 4 real. After analyzing all that i figure, stay single and happy like i am and see what happens.
Other than all that folks, life is just life right now...it is what i'm making it out to be, its not amazing, its not awful but its definitely a happy one and i'm feelin it. I hope within the next 6 months some things will come to me that i feel i righfully deserve b/c i believe good things happen to good people and now i can honestly and truthfully say i'm a good person through and through. Anyways, i will catch u all on the flipside....stay breeeeeezy!
C-Na$ty
| | |
| So i was awake and i figured i'd put something in here this mornin'...
So there is some new thangs that have been goin down recently. I finally got my resume tape made and bout to start mass sending it to TV stations that strike my interest. I sent it to 2 stations last week, one in Macon, GA and the other in Dothan, AL...both smaller towns, but both with the upside of allowing me to be in front of the camera and not behind it. I've seen some other openings in small towns like Hattiesburg, Ms and Cape Girardeau, MO that i might also send it to. I believe a small town start in front of the camera might be the easiest and most efficient transition from my current job. As i've been looking up jobs it sparked another thought in my head about how happy i am to not be tied down or stuck in Shreveport. I remember a while back at a meeting me and my fellow photogs had months ago they brought up the fact how many of the guys will never leave the station b/c they have friends, family, etc keeping them here and that me and my buddy Thomas are really the only ones who have nothing holding us down. I've more so realized that recently, b/c i have no wife, girlfriend, kids, or family here that would really keep me here and thats awesome...b/c one i'm young and two and most importantly until i get to where i want to be in my profession i will probably be bouncing around the country like a pinball in a pinball machine and i guarantee nobody would want to follow me nor would i ask them to.
Also, last week i went out, which is rare considering my bogus schedule that keeps me from doing anything on the weekends. Me, Thomas, our education reporter Casey and Erica, a reporter from another station here in town went to this bar/club called the Warehouse...it was the first time i had been to this place and i was surprised that me and Thomas ended up being like the only white folks there, b/c i knew a lot of white people who had gone there alot....of course me and him didnt mind since we both dig the darkness haha. Main reason we went though was cuz Pleasure P (aka the former front man for Pretty Ricky) was performing. Have to say he did a good job, but dude only has 1 real song he's done, so the rest of the songs he performed were ones he did while with Pretty Ricky, either way it was a groovy time. Other new developments include my roomie/fraternity bro Brandon moved back home...he was havin trouble makin steady income while tryin to do the movie thing so back to Batesville he's gone to pursue other ventures, i wish him luck but i honestly think dude could have stayed a float down here until he got onto another movie, but oh well, you do what you feel is best sometimes.
I guess i was also thinking recently how i almost totally like where i'm at in my life right now, only thing holding me back is i want a bigger and better job, but other than that i'm a groovy as can be...i feel weird sometimes b/c i really dont have anything in my life that totally stresses me out, i mean work does from time to time but it does that to everyone. Most times i feel sooooo out peace it almost scares me, like i feel like i shouldnt be sooo mellow. I always use to think i didnt stress about shit but i look back and think about how i'd agonize over school from time to time and stress about my relationships every time i've been in one, which is probably why i enjoy not dating now. Life is peaceful and once i get a new job i'll probably have a smile from ear to ear 24/7...sexy i know ha.
Anyways, thats all i've got for this morning, gotta get back to watchin The Number 23...be good playaz!
CA
| | |
| man i'm exhausted...the news biz and hurricanes dont mix...haha. I've been up since 10:30 pm and worked 2 straight 12 hour days in anticipation for Gustav's arrival...and just like i thought, the hurricane was a bust...everyone and their mom freaked out in this state and thought it would be another Katrina...i personally thought different b/c hurricanes that cause so many problems don't happen often. I'm just happy now that the storm is through and work life can resume its normal course.
As for life in general, i'm now 23 and for some reason this year i got really into my b-day...i seriously don't remember the last time i was excited to celebrate my b-day, i swear i had to have been like 12 or something 4 realz. Funny thing is i didnt really do anything too exciting. Me and my roomie went to a couple of bars and than the casino but i guess the fact that i didnt have to get up at the butt crack of dawn to go to work that day made it that much better. Of course it would have been more exciting if my buddies Casey and Thomas werent dawn in Nawlins' and Baton Rouge chasing Gustav, but its all gravy.
Something that has me excited is its finally football season, gotta love this time of year...college and pro football every weekend...and happy to say the Rebs spanked Memphis last weekend so thats definitely a positive start to a new era in Rebel football with Houston Nutt at the helm...HOTTY F-IN TODDY! and GEAUX 2 HELL LSU, i swear i hate that team and not b/c their good...nothing about purple and gold is attractive and their fans are soooooo moronic, trust me i know from experience. Sadly i cant say the future is bright for my fav NFL team, the Falcons will probably suck the fattest dick in the world again this year, but maybe they will find a way to make losing exciting, who knows.
I guess thats all i have for now, i'm on the border of totally spacing out so that means only one thing...its time for a nap...be e-z young world!
C. A-izzle
| | |
| So i'm sitting here being lazy on one of my days off, which doesnt really bother me...but my mind started to wander so i figured one way to alleviate my mind from racing was to put it down in here.
So lets see, whats been goin on with me recently...well i'm gettin over this stupid staph infection i have, its gotten a lot better, was kinda scary at first because i was pissing blood on sunday and had to leave work early, that had never happened before, but luckily thats over with. Speaking of work, its been busy as usual...covered some intense things in the past few days. Last Saturday i was out on this shooting for 3 hours where this 40 yr old guy got shot up in his truck by 2 dudes over a flippin' dice game...i mean really, who gets that angry over dice...than on Tuesday me and Redford had to go cover this shooting like 3 blocks from the one on Saturday where this dude capped his g/f in the head in the middle of the street, surprisingly she is still alive. I think its something about the heat in the summer that drives lunatics even more crazy, causing them to be more trigger happy or something...b/c every time i turn around at work i have to go cover some shooting or stabbing...its wild. Also something that could be new and interesting is that I applied for grad school at the University of Miami and will hear back within the week if i got in...if so, its peace out Shreveport and off to live it up Miami Vice style...haha. I eventually want to work in Miami b/c its a top 20 TV market and its a hot bed for sports (Miami Heat, Florida Marlins, Florida Panthers, Miami Dolphins and Miami Hurricanes)...so i figure if i'm already down there getting my masters degree it might be easier to get a job in front of the camera...but if that doesnt work out i wont be too upset...started looking at other jobs today and while i didnt find anything real interesting i've got my eye on a couple of places that seem like they would be good to work at, such as West Palm, Tampa, Orlando, Charlotte, and Oklahoma City now that they have the artists formally known as the Seattle Supersonice...lol. But thats enough about work and shit.
You know i was thinkin today that i've been single now for like 9 months...pretty wild in my mind. Its interesting though most people try to "live it up" when they are single and i've done the total opposite...i havent dated one lady since i've been in Shreveport and thats nothing against the ladies here b/c they are cool i'm sure. Sometimes in my head i felt like i was kidding myself when i said i wanted to totally do me, but wow i really wasn't frontin'. I mean i'm totally positive i could do a relationship the right way right now if i was with the right woman, but i don't see that happening b/c one i dont feel like the right one will come around and two i don't feel like looking as it is...but dont get me wrong i love chillin with ladies and hangin out but every woman that i've hung out with here i see them purely as a friend, probably b/c they either have some baggage mentally and physically that i could put up with on a constant basis...and i know that makes me sound like a dick, but hey truth be told ya dig...enough bout that though.
Man i've got an itch to spend some flippin' money...i have 300 dollars in cash sitting in front of me and i want to spend some of it on myself...but not sure what? I know i want another baseball cap, but not sure which one...been thinking of either getting a new Florida Marlins one or maybe a Kansas City Royals cap b/c its blue and the Marlins one is black and i already have a black cap. I know i want some new earrings, prolly fake ones cuz i aint ballin enough for the real shit...and also NCAA Football 09 is out so i'm sure that could keep me entertained when i'm not working...thinkin i need some new digs too...maybe a polo or 2. I guess i'm leaving this entry public so my friends can tell me something good to buy...haha.
I'm outtie though...catch ya on tha flipside.
C to tha A
| | |
|
